Oh Crap! on Day 5

Posted on March 5th, 2009 in Blog Blurbs,Life by Quinn

First of all I’d like to thank everyone for your support through this “quitting smoking” deal of mine.

So I’ve manage to go four days without smoking! That’s a huge accomplishment for me. However, here we are on day five and for some reason the urge was just too overwhelming and in the spirit of full disclosure the scene this morning was… about 6:30 am the patch got ripped off the arm…a pack of cigarettes was purchased…all before my three son’s were almost strangled…and Sharon’s head was almost ripped off her shoulders… ~sigh.

Now I’m just overwhelmed with guilt. Not only for giving in to my temptation but for also being such a grumpy bear to the ones I love the most. Not to mention letting everyone down.

I don’t understand how I can go 4 full days and then all of a sudden get totally side swiped.  I thought it was supposed to get easier the longer you went without it. I guess not! I have to admit, this has got to be one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.

I guess the good part about all this is that I’m so riddled with guilt now, the patch is back on and I’m not going to give up! NO! I’M NOT GIVING UP! DAMN IT!

This was only a set back, right? I mean, I did manage to go 4 days, almost 5, without a cigarette. I think I was just unprepared this time. So, I lost a battle today, but I will win the war!

The Battle Continues…

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